FRUSTRATED!

Okay . . . I hate to be a negative but since this is my blog and I feel I have to air my feelings here I’ve got to tell it like it is. I have decided to try my hand at photography . . . well what a great idea . . . NOT! Or maybe I have to give it a little time . . .but I try to make believe I am so ZEN when  really I am so not. I know I need to be practical  and patient but these are such hard pratices for me. Maybe if I’d actually start attending that Hot Yoga I’ve signed up for . . . Hmmmm.

So here is the scenario. I decided that my regular 35 mm camera wasn’t good enough for my new endeavor. Since I came into a little money with my luck at the casino I thought I’d invest in a better camera but now I feel like I’m involved in the Great Money Pit, for now I need lessons, a tripod and Goddess knows what else.

With my memory, as I age it seems to be a black hole to space, the information goes in, but doesn’t necessarily come out so I wonder if the lessons are really going to take. Am I doubting myself too much? Probably, but who knows . . .

Yesterday I stopped in the camera store I spoke about, telling them about the debacle of the photos of the moon I had taken explaining that I thought my photos were wanting. The nice woman and man there reaffirmed it wasn’t me and my short comings, it was that I needed a tripod. So after I bought the tripod  I signed up for a class for Introductory Night Photography and a Special Event Photo Excursion to follow up to go out and use what we had learned in the class. Great! I’m looking forward to it with a little trepidation.

The man there suggested I also look into signing up for 1 on 1 classes to learn my camera at $99 each class – taking two classes – then he’ll throw in Thurs. evening classes. Sounds good. Now I bought the camera at Target where I have 90 days to return it if I can’t get the hang of it. This is supposed to be a FUN hobby, not a part time job! I have a few other things on my plate. I didn’t know this was going to turn into a major investment. I still think I’ll need another lens.

Last night as I was taking pictures of the moon, just using the tripod which the people at the camera store said would be the answer, well it was NOT the answer. I tried all the settings on the camera as I was using the tripod to hold the camera and the pictures of the moon are no better, Hmmmm. So, really  unless its me, which it could be  . . . I do not want to have to buy another lens. That’s why I’m calling it the great money pit!

So, now I’m extremely frustrated . . . and perplexed. What to do, what to do.

As if that wasn’t enough on my plate, when I got home Spooky the cat was sick and I had to take him to the vet.

And we don’t even want to go there. If  you have a pet, you know how that goes . . . the Drs. can’t wait to tell you about all the tests you should do when all I wanted to do was know if he was alright. I think he ate something that didn’t agree with him. He has never been sick before in his 3 years of life. I think he ate some grass and I don’t think it agreed with him, perhaps I jumped the gun by going to the Animal hospital, but that was because he was having accidents on my carpet. When it was on the tile I was okay with cleaning it up with bleach and worrying, but as soon as I found his little problem on the carpet, it was off to the doctor.

Then they decided it was time for every expensive test under the sun . . . not for me. I thought we could wait, at least for a day or so, if the antibiotics didn’t work. I remembered seeing him eat grass just a day before as I was being the intrepid photographer!

As if all this wasn’t enough, I am also waiting with baited breath for some CAT scan results back from my Oncologist. Usually I am nonchalant , but for some reason this time I’m a little nervous.

Now you now the whole sordid story and why I’m so frustrated.  Never said I’m not a baby,  just ‘splainin!

PS.  My Oncologist is not thrilled with the CAT scan results of my stomach so now we have to do an MRI . . . yuck, hopefully it will be good news. I told you I was a little worried. Now I’m even more scared! Damn! I’m sure it’s nothing, right?! We’re just being cautious because of my history with the stupid run-in with the big “C” two 1/2 years ago. How fitting since it’s Breast Cancer awareness month! Huhn!

(C) Written by Evelyn Garone 10//12/11

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About Evie Garone

I am an outspoken woman with independent views of the world. I am spiritual but also realistic. I've successfully raised two men who I've sent off to college and am now following my love of the arts, including painting, drawing and writing. Thus, two blogs, two books I sporadically work on, voracious reading, among other loves keep me busy.
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3 Responses to FRUSTRATED!

  1. stillstrange says:

    I’ll be praying for good results for your CAT Scan & MRI Results results. Believe me, I know the frustration of medical tests. Usually, animals eat grass when there stomachs are upset and grass makes them throw up. I think it was a good call for you to wait a day verses going for the expensive vet tests. I’ll be praying for Spooky too. If your weather has suddenly changed like ours has, that could be affecting Spooky. As far as the photography. I think its great you are going to take classes. Unfortunately, I’ve discovered most hobbies/classes are expensive to start but hey, if you’ve got it and are interested..doesn’t hurt to give it a shot.

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    • Evie Garone says:

      Hey thanks so much for commenting! I’m kinda nervous about the MRI . . .the CAT scan came back and the results had enlarged blood vessels? I’m refusing being ANYTHING but positive! As for SPOOKY, he hasn’t thrown up, poor thing it was the other end . . .So I’ve been wrestling him to give him his antibiotics . . .. yes the weather has changed and the lawn man also has scalped the grass for winter grass. So, I’ll go forward with the photography classes . . .see if I get the hang of it, hopefully the info. will stick, ha ha! Thanks for the positive reinforcement! How you doin?

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  2. stillstrange says:

    I’m doing as you know. Thanks so much for becoming my 1st Follower. I wish I could give you a Star* I hate to beg my friends but I so want someone to care about my life. Maybe you’ll get the ball rolling. Ha, Ha.

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